WARNING: These are some bitter and ugly thoughts which I probably shouldn't publish.

It's not often that I've felt this disgusted. Two weeks left until the election, and a major question is glaringly unanswered. It seems that no one cares. At least, the people with skills and connections don't care enough to really investigate this thing and find out whether it's true.

Might they be afraid that it will turn out Kerry really was honorably discharged, and only once?

Perhaps all smoke and no fire is what they want. Are they going to wait until Kerry is president, and then start a bunch of INDICT KERRY web sites?

I'm sorry, but I think such attitudes are helping to put the guy in the White House. I wish to God they'd just put up or shut up with the proof of their claims and accusations -- at least this one time! Because if Kerry wins, I'll be having to put up with their vitriol for at least four years.

I am so sick of this right wing Kerry schizophrenia that I am beginning to think I should publish this post, and not allow it to languish like so many of my bitter unpublished posts.....

Because seriously, if you're running a hate machine, what's the bottom line? You need somebody to hate. They might not admit it, but some of these folks want Kerry to win.

If only the Hate Bush crowd felt the same way! But they don't, because the dynamics are quite different. The left are completely out of political power, and the hard left know that getting someone in the White House means everything else must be subordinated to that end. The hard right, on the other hand, have felt emasculated by "compassionate conservatism" for years now, and they've never really gotten power. With Bush out, they'd be free to vent their spleen, and do what they do best: HATE somebody.

Kerry is their dream come true. They just can't admit that they want and need him. Why, that would be almost as embarrassing as it would be for the shriller antigay fundamentalists and ardent gay activists to admit their secret mutual needs. Or for the former to admit that they hate the peaceful Jesus, and secretly admire the Bigot God of 9/11.

I sincerely hope that Kerry does not win.

I'm just not sure I can say that for all his "opponents."

To end this sour post on an even more sour note, I'd like to voice a suspicion: I think that some of the better-connected Kerry haters already know exactly what dirt is out there, and they're deliberately holding back on it. While this is normal enough from a strategic viewpoint, my fear is that they might withhold crucial information deliberately until after the election. For example, I think that if a dishonorable discharge exists in the hands of some of these Hate Kerry people, they might keep it secret in order to maximize their leverage later. If Kerry wins, there's sure to be a realignment on the right, and the people who've been snubbed by Republican centrism will be ready for battle against those who (so they'll claim) "did nothing." Such hypocrisy will be hard to endure.....

Obviously, I can't prove my suspicions and I can't do much about any of this. But I will say this: if Kerry wins, and the Hate Kerry machine starts producing the documents they aren't producing now, I'll say, "I told you so."

A small satisfaction that would be.

I'd rather be wrong about my suspicions.

And I could be wrong. If this thread is true, they're deliberately holding back until the last minute.

But won't people be questioning the timing?

UPDATE: Here's Glenn Reynolds on whether the election of John Kerry would increase his blog traffic:

CONFLICT OF INTEREST? James Miller wonders if InstaPundit will be better off if Kerry wins. Henry Copeland thinks my traffic would increase dramatically, and he's pretty much always right about these things. Nonetheless, I think a Kerry victory would likely be much worse for the country.

I doubt very much that the Kerry haters I mentioned above consciously want Kerry to win. Unconscious motivation, though, is another matter.

If important information is being withheld from voters, I think my question is a fair one.

MORE: Exactly why did Pat Robertson become critical of the war effort (and supply ammunition to the left) at the last minute? (OK I'll shut up!)